Vanessa.  Don't do it.  I know it hurts, I know its pain, I know.  I do.  Find something to live for, find something to stand for, find something, anything, no matter how big or small and hold onto it.  I love you and I will ALWAYS be here for you.  Just don't do anything rash, because I won't forgive myself for letting it happen.  I'm here, just talk to me?  Anything.  Anytime.  Anywhere.  We can rebuild our friendship.  I'd like it a lot (: