stuff.

I am not strong enough for this.
I will fall away in front of your eyes.
I'll be wounded and I'm scared she'll see me vulnerable.
I am not strong enough for this.
Its hard enough hearing about her.
I don't want to see her face, her eyes, her heart beating.
I don't want to think these horrible thoughts.
I'm better then this.  I'm better then this fear.
But I'm not strong enough.
It'll be like losing something that isn't even mine.
You may not be scared anymore, but fuck, I'm petrified.