Its hard to explain, how I really feel about everything.  When I really don't know.  You say it isn't fair, well neither were the nine months I waited for you and then the two months we were together, then the month you abused me, then the two other months you gave me false hope, then the days you took me back, then threw it back in my face.  I'm sorry, what has this been, a week?  A week.  I need time.  I gave you over a year and you moan about me dragging this out over days.  Nothing about us has ever been fair.

I don't trust you to not hurt me again, I think you're lying.  I have no faith in you not to find some other girl.  Thats why I can't do this, you can say it as many times as you like, but you lied to me.  You lied so much.  And I don't know anything anymore.  I know I like how we were the other night, it felt right.  But I can't trust you, I never will.  Not anymore.  But I know that I love you and I'm finding it hard to let go again.  I don't want too.  But do I have a choice ?