I feel so far away.  So distant, I don't think anyone really reaches me anymore.  Its confusing and it hurts.  Its as though I'm living somewhere else, and my body is only present here.  What do I do ?  I need someone to tell me where I'm suppose to turn, look.  I don't feel.  Its so hard to explain.  Its just emotion to me.  I feel it, but I don't.  Its like, when your body goes into so much stress, the heart just flat lines, and you're dead.  My emotions do that.  I feel so much, that they flat line and stop.  I become emotionless and dead.  I want to be feel, I want to be okay, but I'm really not.  I'm so broken.  I'm just pieces, held together by pure will of not wanting to fall apart.  Sigh.  I don't know anymore.