I haven't been thinking much lately.  Whenever I do it seems to work out worse than it did before.  I keep trying to make the right decisions, to make everyone happy, but I don't even know what I want and how I need to be happy.  I don't have anyone to talk too, I wish I had that best friend that would lie on my bed with me and listen to me talk and rant about what seems like pointless problems.  But alas.  I am alone and lonely in a world filled with people with fake smiles and cold hearts.